Perhaps The Most Straightforward Thing I Have Ever Said Poem by Em Jay Christian

Always,
Taking advantage of the fact,
I always come right back,
I always smear that silly smile,
Right across my face.
Sure she took my place,
Only days after,
But I’m still showing face,
Feigning laughter.
Whatever happened,
To happily ever after,
To I promise?
I will always miss,
Moments like those,
And regret moments like this.
My only weakness,
Not being wanted,
But needed,
Not abused,
Well treated,
Perfect, pristine,
Not tarnished,
But clean.
Truly putrid,
Reeking of product,
And rhetoric.
My body tight,
My wit slick,
My wrists slit,
But my quick wit,
Intact.
The thing you loved me for,
Oh I’m sure it rhymed with wits,
“Is that a fact? ”
Don’t lie darling,
It’s unbecoming,
Don’t over embellish,
Heart on a string,
Still beating,
A thousand drummers drumming,
A thousand different beats,
Keeping rhythm,
An outstanding feat.
A smile,
Straight stare,
While lying,
To my face,
So why don’t I care?
The truth,
I care too much,
Need proof?
No such luck,
I have spent,
Far too much time,
Making this pretty,
Making this rhyme,
Speaking these truths,
In a way I’m sure you wont get.
Because I can't just,
Come out,
And say this.
It hurts,
Too much to forget,
No, not a regret,
Can’t let myself have those.
A metronome in my mind,
Keeping time,
Counting down,
Until I snap,
Drain my strength,
Wrap,
A gag around me.
I’m drowning,
In despair,
Can’t breathe,
There’s no air.
But that has little to do,
With this,
With you,
It's nothing I cant handle.
I’m a gamble,
You couldn’t take the risk,
You chose to miss out,
On me, on this.
So here it is,
I wrote our love on my wrists,
And with a kiss,
I bid thee ado,
Wish I had missed.
And yes,
I know how this sounds,
But it cant always be about YOU!
I never knew,
I could be through,
Over this,
Over you,
Its true.

Perhaps the most forward thing I’ve ever said.