Prayer To God Poem by Lady N

I am the author of my own life, but unfortunately I'm writing in pen,
So I can't erase my mistakes, but only repent all of my sins,
I come to you dear God, in hopes of a better life,
In hopes of a better future, give me the strength to put down that knife,
Knife, gun, or blade, which ever I choose to use,
To cut, to shoot, to hurt, only myself I choose to bruise,
Dear God I've made some mistakes, only one time too many,
But please forgive me Father, I'm only human just like any,
In life we make mistakes, though I don't go to church I've learned,
That one day we'll get it back, what in the fire was burned, I've lost all of my love, my soul I somehow lack,
I might have sold it to the devil, but dear God I want it back,
I don't want to commit suicide, I swear it's just a phase,
Unsure of what I'm going through, dear God you'd be amazed,
But when my time has come, when it comes my turn to die,
Please think before you send me, please hear my painful cry,
I don't worship the devil, I