Questions At Midnight Poem by Richmon Rey Jundis

(Kantiant Poem based on the Critique of Pure Reason)

It was midnight in cold month of April,
I heard my heartbeats in the silence of the night,
As the caffeine rushes through my veins,
I can't sleep.
Too much noise,
I hear behind my head.

Alas! It was my fully awake mind,
Asking the same questions, again and again,
Knocking at the backdoor of my head,
Protesting my cruel treatment on him,
Demanding for answers that I cannot give now.
My mind was asking me:
"Why am I existing?
Why am I thinking?
Why am I busy discovering
About other things outside me,
Yet I cannot find my own identity? "

I tried to lure my mind,
Escaping from giving uncertain answers
By looking at the countless shining stars,
But the glorious midnight sky
Reminded me of the millions of antimonies of reason
That slapped me the bitter truth
That I was contradicted countless times
With another knowledge that my experience has taught me.

The cocks had crowed,
And my past experiences had taught me,
That it should be dawn already
But when my eyes found the clock,
The clock shouted to me that it was just thirty minutes
After midnight.
I was slapped again by the truth
That experience can be a teacher
Full of contradicting pieces of knowledge,
And I ought to always examine carefully
That I may not be fooled to only look
At one side of reality.

I cannot mute my mind,
Although my eyes wanted to sleep already
Since it was passed midnight.
My mind beseeched me to answer,
But I fear,
That I might only give an answer from my experiences.
Should I answer him:
"You are a faculty of my brain as a body organ",
Or should I tell him:
"You are the one that makes me special
Among all the other animals? "
Or should I answer him more analytically,
To avoid giving uncertain judgement,
Albeit it cannot give him new knowledge?

Probably if Immanuel Kant's soul
Can be borrowed at that moment,
I would have had formulated a synthetic answer
Infused to a priori.

I know,
If I was able to answer my mind's questions
I would not probably have a difficulty now
In answering my own enquiry:
"Who am I"?