Razorblade Hope Poem by Paige Noble

The Blade Rips My Skin Apart
Mauling My Soul And Battering My Heart
The Blood Flows Like Rain In Spring
But Its Crimson, Not Clear. Its Red Like A Sin
The Blood Drains Away, Into The Dark
I Look At My Wrist And Smile At The Mark
Its What I Deserve. Its What Had To Be Done
I Think To Myself 'I Wish I Could Run'
But Run From Who? Run To Where?
To Meet Someone Who'd Help Me When Im Full Of Dispair
I Need A Friend. Somebody Who Helps
Inside My Head, My Brain Pleads And Yelps
'Why Cant You Stop? ! ' It Screams In Fear
But Now Its Done. Theres No Going Back From Here

Death Shows No Mercy, It Makes Me Stay
The Pain Grows In My Wrist, I Now Have To Pay
I Have Nobody Left In The World. Everyones Gone
This Is Why Im Alone For So Long
I Think Of The Pain. Its Not So Bad
But That Makes It Worse, That Makes Me Mad
I Want To Feel Pain, I Need To Feel Hurt
I'm Full Of Badness. Im Full Of Dirt
I Plunge The Blade Back In, Scoring My Arm
I Wipe Away Blood, In My Head Off Goes An Alarm

The Pain Dwells Then Rushes In
The Cuts Are Deep. Bloody And Thin
I Sigh, This Is What I Need
A Hunger In My Brain That Deserves A Feed
I Just Need Someone To Help Me Through
How Would You Feel If It Was You?
But Its Not. Its Me Standing Here
My Eyes Full Of Pain. My Heart Full Of Fear
But Its Me With The Pain. Its Me With The Hurt
Its Me Standing Here. Full Of Dirt
I Glance At The Pills And Claw At The Box

I'd Be Better Of Swallowing Rocks
I Rip It Open And Down Whats Inside
They Start To Kick In And My Eyelids Come Down
The Pain Stops, I Shut Off Whats Around
I Fall To The Floor, I Struggle To Breathe
I Smile Happily As Everything Leaves
My Breathing Slows And Comes To A Stop
My Life Was A Failiure, Just One Big Flop
My Death Was Peaceful, Nice And Slow
My Heart Stopped Like A Plug In A Flow
Its Over Now. I'm Calm Again
But Just Wait Till Its You. You're Next My Friend...