Rugburn Poem by Kitty Marie Lucas

i have to face the truth:
things began to fall apart
when you showed all that you aren't
at least you never hung around
although i wish i were stronger now

it never affected you:
it wasn't long i felt weighed down
when you joined forces with the ground
compared to eons that creep by
when i recall and relive the time

when the rug burned on my knees
and you don't leave my head
and all i think is of the red
if you're a pollution or not
if red isn't the only thing i got

i don't want to see
that all i am is to dissipate
what if my plans are laid to waste?

there's nothing to say, i don't wanna be heard
possibly tainted, i'm now unsure