Selfish Fears Poem by Sanika kkk

Will you emancipate me,
By letting me be?
Will you comfort me,
by keeping a distance?
I can't help but cry
But will you just stare till I dry?
I will be frustrated and curse
but don't stop me or fuss.
You will find me broken
But will you promise not to fix me?
Been numb for too long now
I want to submerge myself in complete sorrow
And feel the loss, pain and grief
As if there is no tomorrow.
But I need you; so I can feel him
to feel his forehead pressed against mine,
to feel his breath enter mine.
I want to sanctify once again in that warmth
But the fire is gone and I can't help but feel withdrawn.
I've been burning in guilt for long
to some body I want to belong
and lose myself in a new song.
Like a parasite I will feed on but
Like a guileless host will you shrug it off?
Will you help me dear?
To abuse you for my selfish fears?