So Much More Poem by Octavious Harper

Most put labels on me, because I'm so unassuming.
Unaware of the depths of me, discarded gifts they were losing.
Spoiled rotten with jealousy, for the mediocrity they were given.
Begging God everyday, to let me live how they were livin.

I've always felt I was different, and then they started to see.
But since they didn't understand, they found discomfort in me.
Brought forth the title of "black sheep", deserted me to the pasture.
They thought this problem is over, but No! My heart is a factor.

Steady juking these demons at the attempt of a tackle.
Baptized by fire and fury, so there'd be greatness in me.
Willpower without limitation, giving things all of my soul.
With thee incomparable knowledge of all the wisdom of old.

Like the coat that was too big, I've grown into all my potential.
But the hardest part in that, was overcoming my mental.
Blockages the opposite, negative end of the spectrum.
Those negatives were negative, brought positive as a weapon.

See they don't know of all the struggles me, mom, and Taty endured.
Those 14 suicidal actions because I felt insecure.
Coming to grips with all mortality, at the lost of a friend.
Or how I stay resisting love, paranoid of its end...

Not sure I'll ever know, what you seen before.
But what you see in me, know I'm so much more.
I've shed a lot of blood, but I ain't win the war.
But I won't stop my climb, until I hit the floor.

Octavious Harper
01/30/18