Suicide Poem by Mike Gonzales

Suicide
Call me crazy because I want to grab the gun sitting on the table light shining on it and put two bullets in my head
Or am I insane cuz this life of mine I want it to end
Ask me why and receive no answer
All I know is each day it just gets harder
Crazy thoughts are having a marathon in my brain
Been thru so much this heart can't feel no more pain
Am I ready to say goodbye
While my heart and conscience collide
Which one will win I can't decide
And I as wake up
I still see the gun on the table but now the light is brighter
Is this a sign I should just give up or maybe one thats telling me to keep on trying
However as these thoughts in my mind keep on running
Somehow all I believe in is just dying