Surrender Poem by Anthony Levitt

I have no clear view only what lies below...
I could look up but my fear has overcome me with witnessing the final blow...
I all too often suffer immensely at the thought of what soon may come, that I would rather retreat and continue to run.
I surrender only to myself and none other around,
for it is my actions alone that destroy my world, my dream and hope of happiness I may have finally found.
There is no excuse for betrayal, no excuse to lie...
Except we do it so often to ourselves and the truth is well, it becomes a denial.
Finally it becomes too much and I get lost in the web,
for nothing will convince me this is not the path, no matter what is said.
So I lay down my arms and await my fate, to give in to all those feelings of hate. I have no plan, no goal in my sights and everything I do is a constant fight.
I do not claim to know who I am nor whom I wish to be,
but if life has taught me this much it is nothing we do is consequence free...
I've made my choices and gone nowhere, my life, my reality too much to bear...
Guess ill have to start anew because clearly this isn't working out...
So here I come brand new life with many new rout's.

Goodbye my old life I'll miss you no more,

To something new... I surrender...