That Growing Pain Poem by Katherine Perry

To all the girls that don't know
That you are about to make a decision
A decision that will seem easy at first
But it will start to eat at you and grow
And you don't know why yet, but it hurts

And as you live your life, it grows
The more you live, the more it grows

Pretty soon your own thoughts will start
to confuse you
And you won't be able to even remember
The reason why you made that decision
That day in the middle of December

But as you live your life, it grows
The more you live, the more it grows

So you go on living, trying to ignore it
Then before you know it your getting married
And for once, you feel everything is perfect
And that pain that was eating away at you,
you think is burried

But as you live, it still grows
The more you live, the more it grows

Then one day the news comes
And you leave the doctors with a smile
For you just found out your having a son
And you will be naming him Kyle

And that night, you crawl in bed and close
your eyes
And that growing pain comes back
And it hurts more, and nothing would make
it go away
Then you opened your eyes, and you knew why
As the tears started to roll down your face

You realized why you couldn't remember, why
you made that decision a few years ago
You did it because you could, with reasons
too few
But now you know, and why it continued to
grow
Because that decision that day, was meant to
be made by two

That baby could not speak
So you made the decision for it
Your own child that you will never meet
Your baby's beating heart, but you chose to
ignore it

Nine months later you give birth to your son
And he opened his eyes for the first time and
cried
At that moment, the pain was back, flashing back
to what you had done
While your heart was feeling love for your son,
another part died

And you know why...
Everyday that you live, is another day taken away
from that baby
Every time you smile, is another smile taken away
from that baby
Every time you eat, is another meal taken away from
that baby

And finally...
Every time you feel loved, is the love you took away
from that baby!

The decision you made was made from your mind, your
heart, and your soul
Those same parts the baby had, but now destroyed,
with no delaying
Just another day in December, and outside cold
That baby was growing, loving you, and waiting...