Thats Me Poem by Wambui Karanja

I do my painting in the dark, because i dont want anyone to see them.
they are the paintings of my life, paintings of my love-life
a love-life that is so complicated, one that i prefer watching as a movie and pray that my role as a character will one day change.
i convince my mind otherwise but it still knows that am living a lie,
no! ! !
am not ready to face the truth,
am just not ready,
let me just do my painting,
you wont criticize it, because you wont see it.
i'll now turn off the computer,
its light is making my painting visible.