The Angel Poem by Shivi Gupta

This Diwali is not just another day
Its a festival of lights.In a way
It brings joy to all, but not to me,
I can only think about how things can be
I miss a human being the most this day.

He is the origin of one's growth
He is the most promising oath
To his child, he will bestow upon
Everything he possessed, until dawn,
He left us all and now in the sky
He's found, burning bright high.

Just a memory brings tears to my eyes,
I could not even bid goodbyes.
He was angry wid me before he closed his eyes
I feel guilty in each of my sighs.

I wish i could hug him, he gulped air
For the last time, I could only dare
to bring him back, he is hsitory now.
And there is only one question in my mind, HOW?
How will I move on without his hand over my head,
But I have to, for myself and my family, thread by thread.

Evry Diwali night I sat besdie him in Worships
Now there is no one there, and my heart dips
Lower than hell can be
I know he wishes the best for me.

I will not let him down
I wil be the most succesful in town.
I will follow my heart and thats the art
Of living, to leave this all behind
And share happiness thats in the mind.

This is how I feel
Salty is my every meal
A father he was who loved me
Without him the world can never be
The same again, He is always with me
In my heart.No inspiration can help me
I stand alone in this family tree.

Can someone come and fix me?
May be an angel in my destiny
She could be my jinni.
Even without anyone, life goes on
And thats how I move on.