The Battle With In Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

Orange rays descend upon my face
There illuminating colors make my hair glow
My eyes are cast over the clear water
And I simply let it all go
My mind is clear and my heart throbs
A pain I can’t seem to ignore
So I clutch my chest and hold a stone
Focus my insecurities and pain in this solitary rock
I throw it as far as I can see
It skips a few beats with the rhythm of my heart
One tear falls down my face
It slowly kisses the ground beneath me
So I scream to release the tension
I scream to release my self
I am free here



My mind is a mangled web of thoughts
Some sad and some happy
It seems to constantly remind me of things
Perhaps to give my eyes a new perspective on certain situations?
I still don’t understand the method my mind displays to me
Yet all I can do is hear its voice
So I close my eyes, inhale, and sigh
What is it you’re trying to tell me?
What is it that I’m hiding?

So as that rock falls into the aqua blue water
A smile creeps across my face
I can’t help but laugh at my self
Why do I let such things attack me?
I’m so much better than that
So once that rock is out of sight
I know I am going to be all right
My heart is a warrior in a constant battle
It holds onto all I believe is right
So why betray my heart but unpredictable thoughts
I’m stronger than all of this

So I release my hands from my chest
And let out a cry
I’m not going to crumble with the pressure
I will stand tall
Nothing is going to break me down
My heart is like the breaking waves
That pushes against the pressures of life
And overcomes its obstacles
I am a true warrior