The Click Poem by flooplesnap cookie

i'm so sick of it
my family and their stupid click
tonight we had dinner
and it became that much clearer
they wont be happy
until they distroy me
i'm the enemy
they were happy before me
in their eyes i'm a disease
i've numbed myself to everything
yet the effect is still the same
they slam me to the floor
i tell everyone the pain i just ignore
really it kills me
i allowed things to happen to me
and this is how they treat me
i protected them
i forgave every sin
where do i begin
they never loved me
they just loved to shove me
i've said again and agian i'm sorry
but it wasn't me
i kept there secerets
and held my end of the threats
i still love them
but how do i begin to tell them what i did
i tell them i push the pain away
when really it just grows everyday
i told them i'm ok
and they just become another part of my play
i want to shut down
forget everything thats hanging around
i've got to go
it's just way to close...