The Day I Hate Laugh Poem by Maria Sudibyo

The day I hate laugh
Is some hard day
When I don't want to smile
I'm dull when watching comedy
I'm bored with everybody
I'm not interested in conversation
I don't want to bother moving my lips
Or change my gloomy mask
Because I'm exhausted
I'm fed up, I'm weary
My emotion drained
And I don't want anybody disturb it
I'll get irritated when hearing someone's amusement
Better if they could be as miserable as me
I just want to be alone
I'd stay away and make a distance
Because if I force myself to appear merry
I will be more hating myself
Because my joke is so fake and cheap
Full of cynical and enjoyment of torturing others
And I will ruin everybody's happiness
With my twisted and hurtful words