The Pain Poem by Beautiful Disaster

I’m bored can anyone help me its like damn you just keep jumping in and out of my life and every time you come back I have to stop myself from holding you closer and closer because then when you leave which I know you will it hurts even more I don’t know why fate keeps bringing us together if nothing is supposed to be and I don’t know why I’m hurting myself over and over again I guess I must love the pain because I just cant seem to let go but that’s what you get when you let your heart win I know for a fact they covered up the truth with their lies and if that’s how you want it that’s fine I don’t know why I’m letting you mess with my functions when I know your going to leave me for dead I just cant let you go it hurts to much but I guess it hurts just as much to hold onto something that isn’t even really yours I’m not sure what it is about you that I cant let you go it hurts and I’m in love with the pain because don’t you know I like to play with sharp objects the pain is just such a sudden rush I cut just to bleed I’ve lost track of reality you’ve seen my scares and heard all my lies but couldn’t give a damn to ask why because that’s just who you are every scar is for you didn’t you know that there is nothing a girl wants more then something she cant have and I know I cant have you so I go find a sharp object to play with because it gets rid of the pain everyone thinks its wrong but its just the same as drinking my problems away I feel like it’s the only thing I can control in my life anymore I’m so messed up opps the blade went to deep now I’ll go to sleep this is my suicide