The Path I Chose Poem by Paige DeRogatis

Pity clouds the skies. I can't open my eyes.
Every companion I once had looks at me and sighs.
I've built myself up high only to shatter my foundation
And I'm lying in the residue of sick demoralization
Huddled in the bed I made
The glimmer in my eyes doth fade
Empty like my bank account
From all the frivolities I've paid
Hesitant to start anew
My struggle is long overdue
For change. I'm losing hope
Beaten by the methods
I use as a means to cope.
Either way I crawl
I plummet or I fall
The only difference is which
Instrument I use to lose it all..
Despite the risk I try..
To live chasing a high
Sinking into sin's abyss
While loved ones wave goodbye.
Alone I bask in pity
Blaming hardship on the city
While I'm scrutinized and taunted
Isn't this the life I wanted?