Things I Cannot Say Poem by Maria Jose Cid Velazquez

I can't believe
the songs I used before
to cry for a boy,
now are meant for you

I don't know how to express
this profound feeling of fear
It's huge, I miss you everyday
I see you and you're not even there

What can I say?
I love you
I know I'm a fool
I'm sorry

Please don't, don't leave me
there are things that I can't explain
I just know they're there, like a condemnation
or a bad luck to be understood.

Things for me are not easy these days
quite sad myself to shout out this pain
this fear of not having you,
will I ever have you?

no.

To be possesive is not good
I suffer jelausy,
jelausy that kills my heart everyday
It's friend of fear, and their victim is sadness.

So far, so dead, so fool
so child, so little, so selfish,
so liquid, so nothing,


I know I need a thousand
good reasons for you to be
with me
doesn't love count as a million?

There are things I cannot say
but I hope the ones I say
can help me for you to stay.