This Is What He Doesn'T Know Poem by Lieketseng Ntsala

My breath
My air
My Soul
My part of me that's just not there
Physically -
And emotionally at times
His absence leaves a gap in my Being
It's like bo-y, m-nd and so-ul
It's crazy

Like one of my favourite songs says
'He was the ocean and I was the sand'
What he clearly isn't conscious of as he rolls all over me
Constantly taking my presence, loyalty and love for granted is that
I'm what keeps this water Majestic
When the world sees him as just another life/leisure source
I'm right there holding him down by keeping him up
He can roll on me all he wants
Truth of the matter is if I didn't exist as Me to him
He'd have trouble tapping into the Force he is
That's why when his world is dry, down n out
It's my name he's quick to shout –
Right after his moms

Being his shore
I make sure to bring him back when he gets caught up in his world's excitement
Be real with him when he gets caught up in his own hype
I'm with him day and night
When the world sees him as a perfect partner to good times and sunlight.
Unaware of the depth that lies further in -
I'm with him day and night
Purely coz that's how we were created to be
I am I
He is he
But without one the other wouldn't BE
So sad but true…
'He was the ocean and I was the sand'
I stay beneath him
Firstly because I have no qualms looking up to him
Not just as a man
But as MY man
Most importantly
I stay beneath him not as servant
But a loyal and loving companion…
A support system
When the lover in me has her ego bruised
The friend steps up
Gives him dap
I'll kick him in the groin coz I'm upset
And still want to know that his cool coz at the heart of this
We boys and what I feel is so much bigger than Vday type Romance
And that's that…

Damn I wish he could get that!