All this agony I fetched amongst myself
No fingers to situate for my poor health
My gashes a commodity so slight
The man who belabored promised “I won’t bite”
Love befell all that I sought
My parents’ adoration was never a thought
I had only an oblivion in order to be beat
I always regarded myself to never reach any feet
I smoked until I commemorated nothing
The food I devoured until I perceived disgusting
Cigarette smoke engulfed my throat
My lungs I dearly endeavored to demote
It hightailed from one to two
The packs I shifted so quickly through
Quickening my death
Anteriorly to my last breath
The morning where it all changed
The dawn in which he arranged
I beamed into his beguiling honey-brown gaze
Beforehand I assumed it was another phase
The hope advanced as the season did
Thoughts of severing my wrists slid
I gave a glisten of hope, a sign
All he wanted to acknowledge was that he was mine
He was and I acquired full advantage
Everything we created I evoked damage
I was optimistic and miserable all at once
We conversed but his brain tried refusing full allowance
It teared him to hear I loved and cared
He believed nothing to beheld there
I lay wakeful throat battered from binding tears
Wishing I only seized my life following all the years
Only 8 and I apprehended god would not permit me into heaven
My optimism on living barely reached 11
My wrists throbbing to relapse
All he fixed was beginning to prolapse
I took his heart and all he can think is regret
His amatory potential ridden brunette
He’s all I can rely on
He looks upon me as if I was the devil's spawn
Although to him it might racket as a compliment
My brain craved to inflict self-torment
I looked to be cherished all in the wrong place
From the beginning I should have fathomed he was my ace
He gave me spark to bestow myself a chance
How could I have done that; when he looked to me it was a teary glance
Marijuana not planted into my receptors because it was no longer capered necessary
Soon my unannounced pill addiction I became unwary
Drugs no longer diverted a roll
Breaking him only pierced me a capacious hole
All the thoughts disposed back
The addictions pursued an attack
I propelled them away
Preceding forward I prized to stay
Kudos! For the beautiful rhyme scheme. A well articulated love poem nicely penned from inner recesses of the heart. Thanks for sharing Vianka. Please read my poem MANDELA - THE IMMORTAL ICON.
Haunting and poignant. Thanks for sharing, Vianka. I wish you peace
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Props to you on this you got me sucked into it at the first sentence all this agony I fetched amongst myself. Those words right there are deep and intense you have a gift don't ever give up on writing! 10+++