Trapt In My Own Box Poem by Larxene (Larxy) Addesso

She’s boxed in...
She’s banging on the walls...
Trying to escape this tightly sealed box...
She can barely breathe...
She’s coughing for air...
screaming for help...
She wants to escape...
She’s scratching, screaming, punching, crying...
She scratches til her fingers bleed...
Punches until her hands are numb...
screams til she loses her voice...
Cries until she’s out of tears.
This box she’s in, it’s far too tight barely room to breathe.


The box is in her heart...
So deeply tucked away...
Invisible to those around her...
but it torments her each day.
She’s smiles and laughs to hide the box
which lies so deep inside.
Until one day it bursts
and she crumbles down and cries.
But no one’s there to see...
no no she cries alone...
To hide all of her feelings...
although her thoughts are prone...
to bring her to this box...
and tightly lock her in...
she’s back at square one
and it cuts her deep within.

And one day she discovers...
there are mirrors all around.
And in it the reflection...
of what exactly keeps her bound.
She sees the tired eyes...
of which tears now erode.
She’s looking for the cure...
but no one sees her load.

She dreams about a rescue...
like the stories she’s been told.
But nothing ever comes...
and it leaves her feeling cold.

Her heart has now hardened...
and yes the box is there.
But now she’s #1...
and now she doesn’t care.

She thinks the box is gone...
but little does she know...
that the colder her heart gets...
the tighter the box will grow.

So one day she feels a pain...
It comes from in her heart...
She knows exactly what it is...
and now it tears her apart.

She looks for a friend...
to help her through this time...
but as the days go past...
She’s made up her mind.

She can do it...
Yes she can!
And all on her own...
She knows no ones there...
But she doesn’t feel alone.




She’s confident, you see...
that she will soon prevail,
conquer her past,
and be the heroine of this tale.

She’s working on it now,
to this very day!
But she believes in herself...
in every from and every way.