Truth Poem by Khaos Dven

Can i be honest? Can i tell you the truth? ...How many lies ive told, how many of my own i had to hold. I wanna be honest and tell you all those times i made a promise, some of them i broke and some of them i kept, the others i had to think about and take a rest. Can i tell you about my demons? Can i express my concern about those heathens? I fall more than i stand, and even though i tell you straight up, blunt, and bland you dont understand. I have so many issues and so many clowns i wanna hit down, so many people that cant help and just drown me, so many people that hate and surround me. And when im there my eyes wonder, and i can see noone. So its just my sin, the end or the beggining. I cant think or breath, i cant win, im the loser in the end.I want to tell you im perfect, not a scrub or an insect...But that would be me all over, the same lie the same cry. Im tired of keeping this bottled in, im tired of being the one on the floor begging, for you to open the door to that relationship we once had, it always ends up bad. I wanna be honest, i wanna keep that promise. I wanna open up your eyes and give you a suprise, but i know there planning my demise.Just know that every person out there that hates me, is nothing. You make me feel like i amount to something, and that brings me joy, something they could never destroy. You i trust. You I love. This is me being honest...i promise.