Undefined Poem by kriti kaul

This feelin is eating me from inside,
I don't know why I'm feeling hollow n void.
Depressed and sad, I don't know what I lost which I had.

This is making me insane,
Am I a failure or some black magic is there.
I'm loosing a part of mine,
this feelin is making me petrified,
March seems dark and May undefined.

I'm screaming within, but a smile is on my face,
To show the world how blissful are my days.
Gifted and divine they think I am,
But no one can feel the pain I have.

Life is simple, Life is b'ful they chant,
but I've thousand reasons why I'm sad.
I've no idea which path I'll choose,
but faith in my fate that I won't loose.

Which way I'll pave, how hard is it gonna be, I can't make out,
All I can see is dull & dark all around.

This is not easy for me at least,
This feelin is killing me like a beast.