Unstable Emotions Poem by Simply Ruby

Spilling on my pages like a soda bottle that has been knocked over.
Rambled and twisted like a search word puzzle with unsolvable answers
I'm no scientist but i bet rocket science would be easier to explain and far less difficult to understand.
My mush like brain unable to locate the right way to express them.
Feelings.
What a horrifically amazing curse.
They leave me feeling dead, hurt, angry and in OH so much pain, but that is the problem isn't it? that I FEEL.
It means i am human and that i am very much still alive.
I envy robots. They are so lucky to not be programmed to feel, or do they too experience the need to self destruct from time to time?
Push a button and BAM! Gone.
Yet here i stand, still, my dark forest like brain sprouting a flower or two.
I'm not sure why it bothers, truly.
For those small bright flowers are instantly killed by the toxic rain that are my tears.
Oh what i wouldn't give to be a robot.
Push a button and BAM!
Gone.