Unsure Poem by Melanie Walendowsky Baker

I know I'm unsure
but that's ok for now.
I'm learning the ways
of not knowing how;

to handle the feelings
I hate to admit,
and lessen the fear
and never commit.

I know I'm unsure
in all this un-knowing,
and fear I still do
that emotions are growing.

Without wanting them to
I know they're in there,
and abhorrence I feel
- I don't want to care.

I know I'm unsure
of all that's to be,
unsureness is fine
but not about me.

I want to stay strong
and always be sure
of all that I want, need
and feelings deter.

I know I'm unsure
of life that appears,
but I know deep inside
I'm sure of my fears.

(Itajaí,15 June,2009)