Walking Upon Evergreen Ambitions Poem by James Darwin Smith II

This heart, just a fossil
Worn by the residuals of these times
Standing besides today's primal notions
Beyond society's redundant designs

Still… I see, Feel something
What if these feelings were true?

Yet, They have been used against me
Is this passion too easy to kill?

Beautiful, She is so beautiful
What a smile, What a smile
I can see something forming around her
It seems to be..
Pink, Bright with such strong radiance of light
Are my eyes playing tricks on me?

Fear, So much fear
Upon this endangered hope almost going extinct
Too much paranoia
So I hid myself and told love, Farewell, Farewell

But why do I feel something right now?
What is with these feelings I feel?

Such a glutton for punishment I am
Hid these expressions far too long now
Sick of being the lapdog for redundancy
So I have to jump off, Get my feelings out, Someway, Somehow

If only the first move was made
An opening that shall inspire my disarming
Dropping this shield that has protected this heart
From the desecration of love's name
Feeling safe and secure
As this trust grows stronger and stronger

I know, I know
The chessboard is set
I have to make the first move
It's just that I have never been any good at chess
Lost so many times
Always used as a pawn, So the player,
Can go to another game,
Or go back to win for which has never been won before

Over thinking everything makes it so much harder
Creates walls thick of muted points
Drowning in the waters of self doubt
Amongst the negative irritation of a skeptic's insanity
Locked inside, As the key is within reach
But these hands are so scared
Thinking this very key will only open for one particular door
The one full of pain felt too many times before

Call me gun shy
Call me lost eyes
Moments seem to go by
Yet, Clarity will soon show itself?
How?

Holding my head up high
In the celebration of happiness
Knowing that I have to try
As I fight for a brand new life

This love will spread
Through expectations balanced higher than ever before
No longer will my head be hidden in shame
Now it's time to strategize my next move
Patience towards a heart shaped beyond ever after

True love just does not rush on through
It takes small steps to make it all work
Proof is within a big piece of today's society
Where love seems to come and go
Traveling into a hyper drive exploration
Where hearts become disturbingly confused

I bide my time
No desperation here
I see what and who I want
Just have to make myself clear
Upon the blue prints of a loving tomorrow

I am here,
Worth every bit of your time
But if I hear, No, Again 'the others before you'
I will dust myself off
I will walk away with pride

Yes, I still do have to try
Give me, Please give me a sign
I will do the rest,
That I promise, I promise indeed

Oh, Well, whatever happens, Happens.
I just know fate will always be right by my side