Weary Poem by Ike Speer

Feeling like my body's drained
Feeling like i'm not sane
Feeling like i'm to blame
Feeling like love equals pain
Feeling like i have no escape
Feeling like i want to break
Feeling like it hurts to laugh
Feeling like my heart is black

Wishing i could love again
Wishing i could breathe it in
Wishing i could erase the past
Wishing i could do it fast
Wishing i could not feel judged
Wishing i could just feel loved
Wishing i was adequate
Wishing i could give a spit

Worrying i'm not good enough
Worrying i couldn't give you stuff
Worrying why i'm in pain
Worrying if i'm truly insane
Worrying that loves a myth
Worrying why i plead the fifth
Worrying if it's all my fault
Worrying if i'm worth my salt