What Drugs Cause Poem by Brittani Martin

i sometimes wonder how different things would be
if i could have looked ahead and been able to see
how living, not having no childhood
and growing up to fast up to no good
starts out as innocence fun ya know
but as you get older the crime starts to grow
you dont stop at drinking or only smoking pot
the drugs get harder and you just can't stop
you leave the ones behind who actually care
because for them to see you go down like that you just cant bare
you know it gets really bad when you start robbing and lying
it gets to the point were you just want to give up and stop trying
your time revolves on how your going to get money to get you next high
and you wont stop at anything to get it theirs nothing you wont try
and when all the cops in your town know you
and watch every single thing you do
acting crazy and helping with dope
just so, for free, you can smoke
hurting everyone who's path you cross
your gain, their loss
its easier to push away the ones who actually care
because you know in the end they will still be their
the streets teach you well
you only get back what you sell
i wasn't supposed to grow into this kind of thing
i was meant to be sober young and happy
but because of my own stupidity
i missed out on every kids biggest dream
and now I'm terrified to get close to anyone
and when i see any sign of emotion i tend to run
i gave up on myself and just stopped feeling
numbing myself to prevent any guilt from what i was killing
and for a mistake i made while i was high
i almost caused the ones closest to me their life
and how do you dropp out before its to late
before you cause anymore sorrow and pain
and how do you change what has already been done
you can't the drugs have already won
and their comes a time for everyone one day
they cant do it anymore and they just walk away
i just wish that was me
i wish it was that easy
its pathetic that i can't talk about how i feel
but i can easily lie to someone and steal
its come to the point were enough is enough
but how do you just forget and walk away from all that stuff