When I Don't Think Anymore Poem by Elif Kocabas

i wanna go on the internet,
i wanna write poems
no one's ever made,
i wanna be praised
and i wanna be loved.
but i only have those,
when i don't think about.

i wanna be famous,
and i wanna be read.
i wanna go to places,
no one's ever made.
i wanna see a world where,
flying doesn't matter.
still i do my best,
to keep this world from shutter.

why do i have things,
when im not supposed to do?
why am i able to write,
when its an exam paper, or search engine on google?
I know bukowski once said,
if it doesn't come to you, don't force to get.
why do i get it though,
when they forsake?

people are hard but im,
starting to think im harder,
when i pass it with the least sabotage,
i call the day honest,
i dont wanna have it uncontrolled,
even though it's my power,
i love this poem to go,
but will i ever hit 'enter'?