Where I've Been Poem by Joshua Hillard

I'm burning up inside,
Feelings along with my pride,
Step inside, let's begin this ride,
Check the tears that I have cried,

So many nights I have struggled alone,
Too cold in a world belonging to no one,
Hatred is the price, too much is shown,
Maybe now you'll see what I meant all along,

This world is built, but only without me,
I'm circled around, fortunate enough to see,
The dream I seek-ed, was enough to flee,
From the path I walk to the air I breathe,

This excruciating pain revealing my thought,
My dreams were crushed as lies were taught,
Brought up behind walls, my feelings were caught,
Demons established, my battles were fought,

Today, to this day,
I cannot find a way,
Let's say I begin to stray,
Away from pain and kneel to pray,

Oh Lord can you save me through salvation,
I'm beginning to find a new cessation,
What I'm making is no revelation,
It's a secret path to my own damnation,

Please wake me before I wander too far,
Not a care in the world as I fill this scar,
A laceration so deep, it'd seem bizarre,
Why I'm still out here reaching for a star,


I've filled this life with regret and pain,
Sorrow as I speak, dismay in my name,
I shed tears of lonesome in the form of rain,
Cry with me now for it's time to change! !