Where Is My Rainbow? Poem by Lesa MRK

An empty crib where a baby might have been...
An empty womb where the dreams have all caved in...

I'm told not to cry,
For this baby whom I loved.
I'm told to forget him,
As though his life never was....

There will be no little rainbow,
In the blue of this sky.
Now a tiny baby-voice is calling,
'Mommy, I must go. Goodbye.'

There was a time when two children lived,
Who were mine upon this earth.
One sweet boy remains,
Endless joy was mine upon his birth.

I believed in my rainbow,
And fairytales and golden sun.
Now my world is dark and shadowed,
And a rain of tears has begun.

I pray to God to let them see,
To show them how special this baby was to me...
I pray to God I will understand,
Why I can never hold my baby's hand...
And maybe when this rain of tears is done,
The world will again brighten with golden sun.
And my heart can stop aching with painful loss,
As a future rainbow's beauty speaks of incredible cost.

(11/3/97)