Who I Was Poem by faith toney

The hollow feeling inside
once what was there is gone
memories tend to fade
time is lost in self discovery
that I do not belong in
a deep mind reconstruction
that allows no one of my type
I am a new breed that is still unknown
confusion run throughout every mind and soul
leaving me alone
I am tired so very tired of trying
I want to give more than I have
I run my mind through the situation over and over
only to be lost even further
a map is not along on the journey I chose to take
not alone but with god at heart
only vacant at times of doubt
how I feel ashamed
how I feel worthless
I don’t not need such wealth
for I am a reoccurrence of mistakes
mistake that injure people I once called close
for I am a sinner all around
god I pled on my knees to have better life
take me away
bring to a place of comfort
a place of warmth internally and externally
I need the acceptance I have given
I need a plan I need to list
I am no longer who I was
good or bad I am different
I want a new deal to arise
for the love is almost non existence