Whose Fool Have I Been? Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Whose fool have I been?
Trying hard not again to pretend.
I'm the one who has my head between my knees,
Losing sleep and feeling weakness.

Just whose fool have I been?
Wanting to begin what has ended.
I've got to be addicted to pain,
And giving heartbreak its name.

I was the one,
Who said that I needed to be alone.
I was the one,
When it was over...
Wanting more what I had known.
It's clear I wish this emptiness...
Was gone!

Just whose fool have I been?
Wanting to begin what has ended.
I've got to be addicted to pain,
And giving heartbreak its name.

Whose fool have I been?
Trying hard not again to pretend.
I'm the one who has my head between my knees,
Losing sleep and feeling weakness.

I was the one,
Who said that I needed to be alone.
I was the one,
When it was over...
Wanting more what I had known.
It's clear I wish this emptiness...
Was gone!

It is so clear that I wish,
You were back here at home.
And it's clear that the fool I am to me is shown.