Why Poem by Gothic Fairy Princess

Why do problems have to happen?
Why does death have to show his ugly face?
Why does pain have to exist?
Why do I put suffer in its place?

Why do you blame everything on me?
Why is everything my fault?
Is it because you hate me?
Is it that I hate myself?
Are you trying to teach me a lesson?
Are we drifting apart?

Do you really mean what you say?
Are you giving me something to believe in?
Tho telling me words you and I don't believe,
I'm never going to buy.

I don't know myself anymore,
Actually I never have,
I don't know what I'm suppose to do,
I don't know what words I'm suppose to say to you.

I may be different,
I'm not going to lie,
I may of made some stupid mistakes,
Tho with everything that's going on,
I don't know what else to think.

I think of every possible way,
To remove problems from ym mind,
I can't treat you like family,
I don't know who you are anymore,
Is it that I don't know myself?

I'm not myself right now,
Actually I never have been,
Tho don't worry,
I'll figure it out by myself.

Today I'll say my goodbye,
Tho don't hope it's my last.