Why? Poem by Emma Jane Rae

you couldnt be happy,
you could only be sad,
you have broke up everything,
that we ever had,
how could you do it after so long?
all that we had,
has all just gone,
i dont shed tears often,
but i have today,
you've made me feel hurt,
and i hope you do the same way,
you've created pain in my heart,
by allowing yourself to rip us apart,
but thers just onething i dont understand,
is how you had the nerve to tell me,
you loved me each day,
when really you were thinking of how,
to dump me in the kindest way,
you said it's not me,
and that it is you,
do you expect me to care,
after what you have put me through,
2 long years and nothing to say?
but you did me a favour,
im better off this way!
no-one to hurt me,
it's now number 1!
i cant believe you say it's nothing ive done,
all that you said to me,
was all just your clap trap,
i cant turn my feelings off like a tap,
it's now half 4 and still no sleep,
no use laying there,
counting the sheep,
the day will come,
when you say you have made a mistake,
and im gona laugh and tell you,
it's too late!
you've blew it,
you only get one chance not another,
coz i dont even give a mother!
i will find someone who loves me,
for who i am,
someone who cares and gives a damn,
your just another relationship,
that went wrong,
but why let it drag on for so long?
you tell me im the best girl you ever had,
why tell me that it just makes me sad!
my world has been turned upside down,
but your not even worth my frowns!
when you were on holiday i missed you so much,
no one to cuddle, no one to touch,
you didnt even call me,
and you say you loved me that much! !
why make me think what we had was true?
you've hurt me so much
i really HATE you!
writing things down,
is how i express me,
my feelings, my thoughts and all that i see,
i allowed you to walk all over me,
like a door mat,
but not anymore im better than that!
you caused me pain through the lies,
you've hurt me so much, you darkebed my sky,
who gave you the right to make me cry?
i hope you feel bad about what you've done,
i may be blonde but im not dumb!
well its now 10 past 6 and still no sleep,
pleases with yourself?
you self centred creep!
through the tears that i cry,
i will say goodbye,
and never darken your day again!