Why Can't I Be Satisfied? Poem by Boston Kelley

My heart is torn to pieces.
I am pulled this way and that by
contentment and dissatisfaction.
So much do I yearn for someone to
love me romantically,
yet why do I not receive it?

Days of desiring romantic love hit
me like a car,
knocking me down to where I cannot
get up.
I barely manage to survive those days,
my only defense being distractions.
Even those defenses eventually fall and
I am killed by the attack.
Oh, why, why must I lack romantic love in
my life?
How long must I remain this way?

Someone, please tell me why I must be this way.
This man who seems to abnormally desire
love.
It haunts me day after day, whispering to
me endlessly.
I manage to shut out its voice for a time,
but it eventually finds a weak spot.
Anger and depression accompany the voice
as I am plagued why I have to feel this way.

When will I find romantic love?
Or not, when will I finally be content
with it?