You Are My Stillness Poem by Yehoshua Shim'onai

Save me, O Great I AM, from the world
. that binds me and deliver me
. from the chains of my nature O Eternal
. and Faithful One,
For I need Your freedom from this
. sickness and Your liberty from
. this shackles!

For in my hand, I have two worlds
. and in my palm are opposing causes:
One side of it holds pen for Your pleasure
. and the other, pleasure of my
. flesh's nature.

And here in my heart there is a turmoil
. and a struggle wages in my soul;
There is no peace in my mind
. and violent forces are in my heart!

Now temptation finds its way again
. towards me and makes its path
. to my soul,
For my flesh makes a way to rise up
. again and my old self tries
. to resurrect.

My heart is about to break apart
. and my soul is about to bleed,
For I have been tired in this turmoil
. and so restless in this struggle.

Why can't I feel Your presence, O Lord?
. Why do You seem so far away,
. O God?
Where are You now that I need Your peace?
. Where is Your love now to comfort me?

For it seems that You have left me in loneliness
. and You turned from me to be alone;
Surely You have despised me, being unclean,
. and You are disgusted of me, being a sinner!

Where is my help?
Where is my countenance?
Where is my deliverance?
Where is my Savior?

But why, O my soul, are you complaining?
. What are these things that you
. are bragging about?
Why are you grumbling inside me
. and so discomforted in me?

Now my sin is not hidden from You, O Lord,
. and my transgressions I do not hide
. from You;
And I shall confess my iniquities to You
. and admit my uncleanliness
. before You!

At the feet of the Lord I lay down
. my broken heart
and at the footstool of the throne of Jesus
. I lay down my contrite soul,
For You, O God, are the I AM Healer,
. and You are my
Restorer!

I shall give thanks to You, O Great I AM,
. for Your kindness
. and I shall be grateful to You,
. O Lord Jesus, for Your mercy,
For by Your sacrifice, You have blotted out
. my transgressions and by Your blood,
. You have justified me.

By Your extended arm,
. You have put my sins so far away,
. from me, You have separated
. them, as far as the east is from the west,
And my sins are no longer in Your eyes;
. You no longer count
. my iniquities against me.

By this, I know that You love me,
. that You cared for my thirsty
. and weary soul;
By this, I know that Your steadfast love
. never ceases,
. and that great is Your
. mercy that never fails!

Where O now is my help and my deliverance?
. My help comes from the Maker
. of heaven and earth, my Only True Savior!