You Were Never There Poem by Kate Warner

There are many things I would like to know
The thoughts are in my head
I try to say them out loud, you know
But my voice, it seems so dead

You're supposed to guard me
Look after me and care
But then I turn around to see
That you were never there

Things haunted me in my dreams
I was frightened and afraid
And all of a sudden I started to scream
But I already felt so betrayed

I'd come home from school
And try and talk to you
Oh, how I was a fool! !
You never listened, how cruel

I'd slowly walk to my room
My bedroom was my solace
You come in and say 'Why are you in a mood? '
But I couldn’t here her beneath all this gloom

Music to me was an escape
A world of many things
I’d always imagine a landscape
With a flowers, trees and a swing

But I’d come back crashing down
To this god forsaken earth
You’d come up with a frown and say;
“Nothing, you are worth”

I look over to her, my mother
And love for her was sparse,
Because I knew that now and forever
She will never be there.