I was born the day the sun did not shine,
Darkness foreshadowed illness,
Blood made it true.
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For all it is worth here I am…
I am brown, with beads of black.
I am beautiful, fragrant with anticipation.
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Where have you gone little one?
Mummy needs you.
She thinks of your softness,
night and day.
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And so I waited,
for the moments, you see,
for the moments that were to exalt me.
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Saintful Sinner, I am
Why do you mock me so?
I do not accept your tired
shallow shrills of violence.
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Aware, very aware,
In every muscle you feel eyes searching,
watching,
waiting.
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It is excruciating
Wanting perfection.
What is, is not enough.
It never is.
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There were moments,
I was afraid.
For you.. afraid for you.
With your big big heart,
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White frailty,
I stand alone,
but stand tall.
For I knew, the best of you.
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For a dream is a dream,
and I have dreamt it.
You cannot, will not,
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