My mothers' perfume.
The scents throughout the day are wondrous,
And not at all like fungus.
Filled with love and delight,
...
The fire upon the ground burns me as I walk
I now realize,
The world is not as everyone has made me seem.
So much pain,
...
You sit here and yell at me saying I'm full of lies.
I stand here and scream back more,
One after another.
I can't escape the dark place I'm in.
...
I seek for attention that I didn't get from you,
Attention that actually made a positive difference.
Abused and hurt is all I ever felt.
You bruised me and broke me,
...
Sometimes,
When I drift away at night,
And see the pretty lights,
I think to myself,
...
Unwanted, Hated.
Mistreated, Misjudged.
All so Cruel with no one there.
The world so unfair.
...
I still love you,
But you have her & I have him.
I don't know what to do.
I'm lost & drained.
...