gary hicinbothem

I do not understand, the pain of my loss is to much to handle,
all i say is, mommy drie your eyes,
mommy dont you cry all i wanna do is die,
i tell everyone who dont care about me to scramble,
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I really need somehelp in my life,
Also love that always used to give me hugs,
Is no longer above,
She is now below with no face to show,
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Death is in my life,
as my love one departs,
why did my life start,
grad the switch blade then slam it through my heart,
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I wish that I could bring my cousin back for one day,
Just so I could say hey,
Since she been deceased,
I haven’t been able to play,
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As I open my eyes and I cry,
Im all alone in my quit room,
My words are a whisper from the past,
My arms are empty because of her,
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I have a scar that crossed my heart,
sometimes i wonder why,
why did my life start,
it kills me to know that we had to part,
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Im having those feelings more than ever,
My minds has those thoughts
That is so clever,
It’s like my feelings are a lever,
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As days go bye and tears for in my eyes,
I cry because she is not in my sight,
I want to do well but I want to fight,
Since we’ve got together,
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As I sit back all alone,
As I cry because I can’t be home,
So as I sit back thinking of suicidal thoughts,
Because im a failure in life,
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my death is forever,
its like i flirt with suicide,
my depresion is painfull,
I always have a knife,
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i think im in love,
i only wish i could get a hug,
she makes me happy,
this is why i whant to be above,
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I woke up 1 morning to my lil sister and my da crying,
and i thought it was about my uncle that was dying,
but i figured out that my cuzin was dead,
it just kept racing through my head as i lay in the bed,
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All the pain and suffering,
That comes out of life,
Why cant I ju5t commit suicide,
And dropp in my coffin bed,
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