14 Shades Of Grey Poem by RyuOh Kenshin

where do i belong
where do i fit
i feel like white sheep with black clothing
unwanted, distant from everybody else
like an angel with a broken wing
feeling that I have no connection with life

I wonder about a lot of things
why was I born?
they said that everyone has purpose in life
that it is in god's master plan,
is his plan that so many people are dying of disease, from each other, and from themselves

Like so many people I feel that have no purpose
A Ghost in a shell is what I am
cold and transparent,
wondering through the earth searching answers of why am I here
what is the purpose of life, if all we just do die at the end

I gave god a burning sign of my soul
so he can finally answer me
why we were created, why was I created?
but there was no anwser
no sign, not even whisper in the wind
or a shape in the shade of misty clouds

I just want him to answer why
do I have eyes without a face?
why do I have bones without a skin?
why do I have lips if I can't smile?

A million dollar question that pops into my mind,
an angel that has turn dark,
and only comforts in the sky and moon,
the only thing that looks beautiful in the world
it is the reflection and mirror to my soul that is buried deep and buried
inside the dark ocean of my sorrows and fear

Sometimes I get caught up in my mind's eye
seeing my self flying somewhere,
somewhere away from the demon of chaos
and god of war, that has bewitch our world
that you have created,
A place where I can finally feel at home
that could that restart the fire in my heart
But I know that it can't be true, that it is only in my faded dreams

Why do people believe god so much?
Does he actually answer your prayers?
Is he even real, or he is just imaginery friend that adult
made up because they have no strength and courage inside themselves
so they need a god, a made up savior up to help them through the day.

I search for answers from the wises sages of the earth, a none of them couldn't help me
or anwser my question,
I don't know whether god is real or not,
If he couldn't come to me
than maybe should I come to him and find out