A Dark Night Poem by Clayton Anderson

The demons that surround me are growing thicker everyday
They circle and they laugh and crawl inside my head to play
Im tortured by the silence of being lonely in my mind
Yet not a single moment that has any quiet can i find
She said she didnt love me, i said we shouldnt be together
Now im haunted by the day that i had promised her forever
In the daylight i go on, and it seems im doing fine
But at night its not so simple, i think ive lost my mind
Death follows me around as if waiting for the break
The inevitable moment when thats all that i can take
My freinds seem duty bound to help me to the light
But theres nothing left inside me, i dont even want to fight
I feel the coldness now as it crawls across my skin
I spend another night awake, the insomnia sets in
Within the whole inside me i fall deeper everyday
Why couldnt i come up with what she needed me to say
Shes moved on without me, and my kids are with her too
She found someone to smile at, to hold her when shes blue
He says that he respects me, that I shouldnt feel replaced
Yet all i think of now, is how my son will know my face
Maybe im irrational, maybe im depressed
But one thing that im sure of is that something has to rest
In peace would be preferable, but im not picky now
I just wont live my life this way, i start to think of how
To end the cycle in my head of bitterness and strife
Yet still hold on for those i love, to continue on in life