A Different Approach Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I have needs, wishes, wants and desires.
And my eyes are undeniably on preferences kept.
I try very hard but for me it's difficult to keep,
My mind open and cleared of judgements to pass.
Although I am the first to admit,
I have blemishes and flaws exposed that exist.

However...
Like everyone else with their insecurities to deny,
I do my best in making attempts...
That I've been blessed with intelligence,
And an abundance of humorous wit.

'If you've got all that going for yourself,
Why are you without a mate? '

Well...
Sometimes laughing in the midst of being intimate,
Can be misinterpreted...
As my way of saying I wish to be left alone.
And offering to sip on water instead of champagne,
Leaves someone I suspect with similar interests...
Making excuses as to why they must return to 'their' home.
And there I am left to remain clueless.

'Perhaps you should try a different approach.
Stop 'pretending' you are gifted with intelligence.
Relax your intent and be like regular folks.'

I did that one time.
But still during intimacy...
I find I have this need to take notes.

'Notes? '

Yes.
Wouldn't you be more attracted to someone,
Who practiced and rehearsed...
What it was that turned you on?

'You're joking...right? '

So, I shouldn't take notes.
What do you recommend?