All My Thoughts Poem by A Starkey

One day I'm happy it didn't work out
the next I am not
One day I feel sorry for you
and the next no sympathy at all

I wonder if you think about me as much
as I think of you
Maybe you don't deserve to be thought about
this much

The more I find out about you
the more I piece things together
That your strange behavior towards me
isn't entirely your fault
That I could have been good for you
that I was different from the others
Older, Smarter and Wiser
I am the unique girl, one of a kind

People said you were sensitive about certain subjects
I wish that I could have been one of those subjects
I wanted to break that facade

I can't drive by your house to make sure your okay
even though it wouldnt be best for both of us
I can't call you because I just can't
I don't want to leave things like this
I love and hate you at the same time

There will be no awkward moments
no way for me to make you jealous
I try to distract myself, keep you from
my mind but it is hard,
Harder than you think