Broken Girl Poem by RayOfLight. madonna

she was the kinda girl everyone always picked on
she couldnt defend herself, just stood there
listening to people calling her fat, disgusting and a pig.
she dreaded going to school every single day.

there she was sitting in her room, thinking of how filthy she was,
starting to believe everything that was said to her.
she wanted to cut away all the fat on her body, she wanted to take
all of the pain away, but couldn't.

crying as she dragged the blade across her skin.
making up weak excuses like 'the cat scratched me'or 'it's nothing' when people asked.
she found comfort in her music, and felt like she could relate to them, to their songs.

the funniest thing of all is that the people who did this to her
won't even remember.

then her daddy left and she blamed herself,
promised herself she wouldnt trust any man ever again
such filthy scum he was.
screamed she wanted him today die inside of her head.
no male influence after he left, she started seeking for a substitute
friends, teachers, but no one who really stood with her forever.

broken mommy crying all day long, thinking where it all went wrong.

now a days she has control over one thing and she won't let go
her dieting got out of control, always sucking in her stomache
looking at it in every mirror she passes
5 more pounds won't hurt her health now would it?
she binges and barfs cause she carries the scars of a little girl.

won't loose myself a second time,
won't let it happen twice,
love me or hate me, cause i'll never change again!