Career Choice Poem by Justine is my name

A million thoughts scrambling through my brain
Screaming and squabbling along the thick grey jelly.
Desperately trying to not look the same,
To stand out and catch my attention

I sweat and gasp at the still plain paper
My eyes search fanatically for an answer
Thoughts struggling to make sense drowning in my for-head vapour,
I can hear so much, but silence still prevalent

Slurred speech, mumbles, cries
If only I could admit defeat
That was the cause of this in the first place it was the reason why
Why I couldn’t fill the page.

I tried to remember something, anything negative
To compare something I could perform to a lesser degree
But I had been forsaken, with an exceptional education
Seemed logical, but proved impossible to me

Choices. There! That’s my downfall
I can’t seem to choose
There’s something I can not do,
Nope I can not choose!

Thus a conclusion!
A career that involves choices!
There I will not succeed.
So eliminate jobs involving choice, I concede

After the aftermath, I am left with jobs suited to me,
The objective is more clear
I cross away the jobs I now know I can’t perform
One by one, narrowing my destiny,
Heaving substantial weight from my shoulders as I tick away a job

My mind begins to slow
I begin to surpass fear
Staring at the list of now suited careers
A prick of anxiety stings me:

How am I meant to choose? ...