Darkness Poem by Steven Reeve

I love to meet friends and socialise,
But what is the point,
When my mood is dark and not light,
When I am not my self,
That happy laughing jovial man.

I have had many upsets in life,
But I have bounced, oh how I have bounced,
I’ve never let things get me down,
But now all I see is a dark black hole,
It wants to consume me.

I pray, oh how I pray,
For that joy and that peace,
That has always been mine,
That dark black hole is rushing up to meet me,
I know I must flee from it.

People say “cheer up”,
They do not know how I am feeling,
Though I try and try,
My joy eludes me,
Help me Lord to be myself.

I don’t want to be this angry upset person,
I want to be once again the person I know I am,
I know this is just a trial,
I know with faith in God, I will have victory,
And peace in my life will reign again.

I seek my joy,
I seek my peace,
I know they are there,
They are just playing hard to get,
Lift me Lord from this hole.

Renew my joy Lord,
Return unto me that peace that passeth all understanding,
Lift my spirit and let it soar,
At the foot of the cross Lord,
I lay my burdens at your feet.

Christians should not feel this way,
Or so everyone tells me,
Though this darkness surrounds me,
I will praise my God,
And put my faith in Him.