Dead And Alive Poem by Vanessa Kingsley

Head bangs I try screaming but nothing comes out
I see everything but blackness covers everything
Knowing everything
Knowing nothing
I can’t breathe
My lungs are being crushed
The lights are growing dim
Shouldn’t they be bright?
Why
Why
Why
The question pounds in my head
Strings play my life away
Who is screaming
Is that me
Why
Why
Why
When will I wake up
Will I ever be the same
It feels like someone is doing something
Something up there in my brain
Is this hell or heaven or Earth
I’ve felt pain since my birth
Who is screaming tell me please
Because I feel nothing inside of me
When does the road finally end
Will it continue going on forever
December chills
Linger in the August air
Why am I so cold
Keys of love
Sing throughout the land
Is the death or is this birth
Can you understand
14 hours of straight sleep
Only 3 in the past week
Is this here or somewhere else
The World is being unkind
New York City lies in Russia
China lives in Somalia
In every way I’ve lost my mind
Yet I’m more sane then you
Is this when it all comes together?
Before death
Before birth
The secrets of the universe are opened up
The mind cannot give up
Knowledge cracks and fills our minds
So much info in such little time
Are thee ready to move on
Singing something of a Shakespearian song
Fire lullabies are song
Watery graves become undone
Airy truths permeate the air
I wonder what the Earth will bear
Blood and toil
Sweat and Tears
The fruit of the land
The pain of the years
Secret trees whisper tales
Fireflies light the path
You stumble over the mass
That has become human ruin
I am living all alone
In this desolate place
Paradise and living Hell
Nights that freeze the air
Days that melt your face
Evenings as wild as the things you chase
Drive into madness
Or maybe back into sanity
Maybe Cannabis is healthy
Releasing us of the mind
We can explore through the times
No more sorrow no more pain
The future brings a certain rain
Stories told
Myths unfold
Into the quiet day.
Head bangs I try screaming but nothing comes out
I see everything but white covers everything
Knowing everything
Knowing nothing
I can breathe
My lungs are being crushed
The lights are growing bright
Shouldn’t they be dim?
Why
Why
Why
The question pounds in my head
Strings play my life anew
Who is screaming
Is that you
Why
Why
Why
When will you wake up
Will we ever be the same
It feels like someone is doing something
Something up there in our domain
Is this hell or heaven or Earth
I’ve felt pain since my birth
Who is screaming tell me please
Because I feel nothing inside of me
When does the road finally end
Will it continue going on forever
December chills
Linger in the August air
Why am I so warm
Why
Why
why