Decision Poem by Deborah Cromer

You are on my mind always, especially when I close my eyes
I see the image of a life I cannot erase or disguise
You are my thoughts automatically when I awake each day
The imprint of a precious memory that will forever stay

There is no way to erase the picture of your look
Being yours with just one kiss off your lips was all it took
You rescued me with honor from the killing grip of my yesterdays
Magically pulling me free from all that rots and decays

My life was blessed and given such a beautiful, lucky chance
My soul released from the painful trap of death has learned to dance
How happy I became with glorious, glowing reason to live
Broke free from the clutches, I lived truly and only to forgive

The sun came up and the comfortable warmth was welcomed in
One smile from you and my new life was born to begin
I gave our relationship everything I had and forever protected you
Living for you, doing for you, I cared extrememly and you knew

Sacrifices made and accepted, only to give you what you needed to be
Building around you with true given love, we towered for all to see
All was for you, especially because you were so very, very, real
With passion showing me truth, you taught me honesty and how to feel

Year after year we struggled and things got harder for us still
Out of control with life's current of reality, we grew apart against our will
You eventually went your own way and I had to go mine
Finding someone else to be with, for you your choice was fine

I stayed alone and lonely and only knew how to grow stronger
Learning to survive without your help and you by my side any longer
I hate you both at times, but always especially only her
She is a mistake for you and your heart, your air is now impure

Breathe it, live in it, you are only sinking and going under
Slipping away and losing, why did you want this I will forever wonder